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English Translation:


No! Nothing at all


No! I regret nothing at all.


Neither the good that was done to me,


nor the bad . That's pretty much the same for me!



No! Nothing at all


No! I regret nothing at all


It's been paid for, swept away, forgotten...


I dont give a damn about the past!


With my souvenirs,


I have enlightened the fire.


My sorrows, my pleasures


I dont need them any more...


Swept away, those love affairs


And all the tremblings they've caused.


Swept away for ever


I am starting anew at point zero.


No! Nothing at all


No! I regret nothing at all.


Neither the good that's been done to me,


nor the bad. They're all pretty much equal to me!


No! Nothing at all


No! I regret nothing at all


'Cause my life, cause my joy,


today, it begins with you!

 

 

I watched the movie today for the first time in years and the song is stuck in my head. Every time I have seen this film that has happened,lol.


 

 

 

 


Just when you think


That you know where you stand


You've got the world in your hand


Just when you're sure


Of a dream that you planned




That's when the scenery changes


It changes...




Just when you think


That you know all the facts


You hold the whole ball of wax


You've got it made

You can start to relax




That's when your world rearranges


And changes...




Someone that you really cared about


Someone that you couldn't live without


Severs all ties...


All at once you're all alone and scared


All the happy "Hello"s that you shared


Change to "Good-bye"s...


Why must we pay


For "Hello"s that we say


Pay when we sigh and adieu


Just when you're sure


And you're safe and secure


That's when it happens to you


It changes...


(spoken)


Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like


And just stay together forever?


Someone would leave


Someone always leaves


And then we have to say "Good-bye"


I hate "Good-bye"s




Why must we pay


For "Hello"s that we say


Pay when we sigh and adieu


Just when you're sure


And you're safe and secure


That's when it happens to you


It changes...


Why, oh why?




(spoken)


You know what I need... I need more "Hello"s.

OK...so I was on Facebook. I have this childhood friend Jeremy in my group of friends. Some new pics from his wedding were up and I glanced. Than I looked at photos of him on his job and felt like a total loser. You see,he's an anthropologist. So here he is on all these fascinating digs in all these incredible places. In fact,he is planning to go to Thailand and Scotland. Me,I am a stay-at-home disabled mother in Illinois. Whooptie-do! I suppose it is silly,but I feel like I haven't really lived. I am so bored with my life. Don't get the wrong idea. I would never exchange my daughter for a career. I understood when I decided to have kids it would take selflessness. I also know that it is common for stay-at-home-moms to go through loneliness and want something for themselves. However,I had not anticipated feeling this empty. I don't want to be an anthropologist like Jeremy. I just want a few hours now and again to explore an interest of mine,be creative,and not only be what I am for everyone else. My life 24/7 is about tending to others. I need to nourish my own spirit while I still have one.  The really,really odd thing...from the time I was a kid until recent years becoming a wife and mother was the most important thing. I was never interested in excitement. I WANTED to just live for others. Most people have care-free years where they just want to experience life before settling down. I must be an odd sort. For some reason I spent those years being serious and thinking ahead when I should have just had fun. I mean,I was never up-tight. I just was content spending time with family,friends and boyfriends. I never had an adventerous side. There is a minimal amount of me that is feeling a little selfish...just part-time. I don't want to trade in my life,just make more out of it before it's gone for good.